Three weeks

Three weeks ago an adorable little boy walked into a room where I was waiting for him. Three weeks ago. Three weeks. It seems like such a short time ago, and as Gary said this morning, a lifetime. In three weeks time, we have been in three countries. We have traveled in a myriad of ways. We have increased our family by twenty percent. We have recovered from jet-lag. . . twice. We have spoken in church. We have survived. We have laughed. We have cried. It has been a long time since I have done so very much in three weeks. It has been a blessing.

I'm excited to think that in three more weeks, things will be even better. Yes, we are doing great. Yes, Simon is adjusting better than we could have hoped. Yes, I love him. Yes, I'm excited for the next three weeks to be done. I want our family to function better. I want Simon to be able to communicate in the way that he wants to. I want Garrison to know that he is a big boy and doesn't need to act like a little boy. I want Noel to not want me so much. I want to cuddle with Gary on the couch for a hour. I want to cook. (Don't get me wrong, I'm so thankful for the meals in the freezer from generous friends as well as the twenty bucks for pizza some night, but I really enjoy cooking.) I want to be on the helping end rather than the receiving end.

I know that these things will happen. Like I said, I'm very grateful, but I'm eager for the next phase. I want Simon to know that we are here and we will take care of him. He doesn't need to throw a tantrum or pull his hair out. I want Garrison to put on his clothes. I want Noel to let go of my leg. I'm so thankful for my God who in the midst of this gives me what I need for the moment. This morning was especially trying. . . for about an hour straight. It is my first day home alone and in the midst of that hour, I asked God over and over and over and over for help with one issue, then another issue, then another. Know what? He gave me what I needed for each moment. If I had known it was going to be an hour, I don't think I would have done as well. I think God is going to surprise me even more in the next three weeks. I'll let you know. :)